LOVE AND WASTE图穷匕见

我曾梦想这样一种声音，悲伤破碎，像云雀一样高亢嘹亮。这种声音竟然能出现在一个糟透了的雨夜里边，甚至还更好，它能从细若游丝壮大到如惊涛骇浪，消失之前还有环绕的回响。若不是老乡一直在我身边说个不停评论他们的风格技术和乐器，这声音将会把我从时间的洪流中拉出来带到一个小小的舞台上，让我瞠目结舌地听他们唱歌。可我不太能明白他们的配乐，独特，但似乎不太协调，各干各的。也许只是和我脑海中原有的音乐不协调，和任何一种我熟识的音乐都不太相像。

中场休息时我屁颠屁颠到门口买了他们的新专，卖盘的女孩说只剩一张了有人要买要不你留个地址我们给你送去吧，我说不成我得要签名，于是买之。我用一大溜子蹩脚英语跟主唱说我太喜欢你们了，您的声音有时候像我最喜欢的Thom Yorke，一大通马屁之后主唱居然记住了lulu这个名字，我后来才知道他叫Joshua C.Love。鼓手是个法国美男，打鼓的姿势很优雅，低音提琴手也是一个美男，签名的时候经不住夸说歌都是主唱写的。他们的狗太逗了，演出时一直躺在第一排的椅子底下，演出完跳出来撒欢，Josha给他配音说"something happens!something must be happens,i don't know what,but it seems something happens"

 Proximity Butterfly---Phantasmagoria:

Everything you will do repays,
you've never gone so far away.
It's ture,man is a little bit strange,
Don't forget he comes from outer-space.
He thinks of ways to invade each others' places,
Seeking a way to escape the day.
Why would you want to sleep,
When you could lay awake a dream anyway.
Lost in a simple song of Love.
The kind that sweeps your feet from up above.

And all of this same history is made for you and me.
Can't you see?
And all of the most colorful things are because we want them to be,cause we need.
something to dream.

Have you ever gotten lost and smiled?
Did you ever want to shake the world?
But didn't get the gril you want?
Have you ever watched the flowers die?
Did you ever have every thing you wanted,a perfection kept by your side?
The rose is a dangerous creature;
Wearing a jacket of knives/
The dew is damp in the morning from the chaos and restless last night ;
It started with glances and glaring;
and then came the unwind.
We were laughing and drinking wine,
for a change we're having a good time.
But under their breaths their still talking about their pains.

The flowers are looking lovely,
If only things were as beautiful as today.
And all of this same history is made for you and me,
Can't you see?
And all of the most colorful things are because we want them to be,cause we need.
something to dream.

I'm lost in here,and it couldn't be better,
never it's a shame.
I'm the only one here.
Do I made myself clear?
If we don't stay together then we'll disappear. 

论文答辩结束的时候我懵了，简直不敢相信我的大学就这样完了。时间之轴在这里打了个节，过去的不可再前进，所熟知和所热爱的也将在此止步。

这种时候又要说些俗气的话了，我希望能什么也不说。光是在心里知道，这里很漂亮，漂亮极了，它比我去过的所有大学都漂亮，甚于我未到到之时梦想的大学。这还幸亏了文化课的老师，他们把画放在一起一幅一幅地给我看，让我对美术的感觉觉醒了，以前我只能说我喜欢这个，讨厌那个。可现在画面在我的眼前展露它精致细腻的地方和流动扩张的地方，它们在我眼前妍媸毕现。以后的每一天里我都想看到更好的画，亲眼看到。

端午节那天我卖了一百多本书和盘，我想我拥有它们的期限到了。我拥有成都的期限也快到了，所以要分秒必争。晚上去合江亭放了河灯和孔明灯，孔明灯离开我的手以后毫不犹豫地冲上夜空飞了个没影，最终或者在空中熄灭坠下，或者在半空把灯罩烧着了燃成三段，掉到河里的一段还能漂在河面再亮一阵。今天就跟以往的许多安逸日子一样，和鱼鱼花20块钱在小馆子里吃痛快了，然后花10块钱在星美学府看了纳尼亚传奇2，完完全全看爽了。